My Personal Battle With Body Dysmorphia
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Posted:Jun 28, 2023 6:30 pm
Last Updated:Jun 29, 2023 10:01 pm 3313 Views
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I never realized until I was taking nude photos of myself today that I suffered from what science calls "Body Dysmorphia".
I've heard the term countless times but I just never knew what it was, only mine has bugged me for as long as I can remember. I even get it when I am fully clothed and watching myself on camera.
Being disabled since birth with cerebral palsy from the waist down, when I am walking I have it implanted in my head that I am walking like the person next to me, but when I see myself on camera it's like I don't even recognize myself anymore.
There's another fellow in the building who is also living with cerebral palsy from the waist down and partially in his upper body. When we greet each other at the mailroom I don't even notice his disability. It's truly a weird feeling. Some say it even leads to social anxiety.
It is unknown who coined the phrase "We are each our own worst critic". Indeed.
Perhaps just dealing with the problem head on is the best solution. Time will tell.
At any rate, I'm taking the first step, I posted an image in a private album for friends to look at. The time for healing is now.
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Short Story: A Chance At Internet Fame
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Posted:Jun 16, 2023 11:18 pm
Last Updated:Jul 18, 2023 10:20 pm 3561 Views
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Timothy was not the typical Midwestern man. Shy, aged late 40's, somewhat rugged, average height, wavy brown hair and green eyes and standing at six-foot in height. Working a regular 9-to-5 job during the weekdays, Timothy supplanted his income with odd jobs on the weekends in his spare time.
Timothy loved being outdoors, especially in the summer, and doing lawn care seemed to be his favorite way of spending time outdoors.
Timothy was always a nerd in high school, and usually the target of pranks and put-me-downs from the other students, often by the jocks. But that was all behind him as he was now out in to the real world, working his way to the top of the ladder in the banking industry, as an assistant loan officer.
Timothy arrives at the residence of Susan and her Alexis. Susan was a regular customer, so today seemed like any other day, or so it seemed…
Susan walks out to the driveway, with morning coffee in hand and greets Timothy, as they both exchange the usual pleasantries they’ve become accustomed to when he’s taken care of their yard. Only this time Susan has this personal inquiry to ask of Timothy.
Without hesitation, Susan says, “I also hear you dabble in videography and photography?”
“Why, yes I do. It seems it’s more of a hobby than a side hustle”, replies Timothy.
“Well, I have a business arrangement to discuss with you. That is, if you’re interested?”, Susan says.
Always willing to make a few extra dollars, Timothy agrees, and Susan invites him in for a cup of coffee to discuss this new proposal.
As they both enter the front door, Alexis is seated on the couch in the living room, with her right leg crossed over the other, holding a cup of coffee. Alexis is also dressed in a robe like her mother. She smiles brightly as Timothy smiles and says hello. Susan invites him into the kitchen to sit at the table.
Susan begins by explaining that she knows Timothy is aware she tends to be an open book.
“Furthermore”, she adds, “I was wondering if you would help me get started with an OnlyFans account? Alexis has one and she’s needled and prodded me for months to start one too. There of course would be no physical attachment between us, even sexual, just be there to operate the camera and make sure the lights were set up perfectly. You think you could handle that?”
“Yes, of course, I can handle that. Piece of cake, actually.”, replies Timothy.
Alexis walks into the kitchen, empty cup in hand, sets the cup on the counter and listens to Susan and Timothy discussing their business proposal.
“I’m not quite sure you understand.”, Susan says adding, “This would be for both Alexis and I.”
Testing this theory, Susan gets up and stands next to Alexis, and as if they rehearsed the a million times before, the two of them in synchronized motion, pull the ties on their robes at precisely the same time revealing their curvaceous bodies.
“No sexual contact, just operate the camera and run the lights for her channel and mine, understand?”, Susan says, as Susan and Alexis put their arms around each other.
“Right”, Timothy nods.
Susan and Alexis both completely naked and acting naturally, take their place at the table, glance at each other giggling and both turn their sights on Timothy and display their bedroom eyes. Both having the intention of seeing where Timothy’s breaking point might be.
“Do we have a deal or not?”, Alexis says in a sultry voice, putting one foot up on her chair and sliding her right hand between her legs beneath the table.
“Absolutely”, Timothy nods.
“Good”, Susan says softly, “We can start tomorrow”, as she brushes her hands over her nipples without taking her eyes off Timothy and gets up to get him another cup of coffee.
Alexis closes her eyes slowly, moans softly, jerks slightly in her chair, brushes her sticky fingertips across her lips and smiles.
“Alexis, that’s the problem with you , you cum so quickly.”, Susan exclaimed as she sets Timothy’s coffee on the table.
Alexis laughs loudly, “Let’s see you do it now Mom. Just look at you, you’re wet already.”
“I am, aren’t I?”, Susan says softly.
Alexis continues to laugh, “Uh-huh”, as she nods approvingly.
Susan sits back down and facing Timothy, begins to finger herself deeply in front of him. Flicking her clit with her fingernail.
Timothy knows deep down, he’s nearing his breaking point, as Susan and Alexis tease him relentlessly with their sexual prowess. But Timothy continues not to show much emotion or sexual urges.
Alexis leans forward slightly, her tits resting on the table. Her eyes darting between her mother and Timothy, gauging each other’s reactions. She senses Timothy is at a breaking point and she giggles, brushing her hand down Susan’s arm, “You like that, huh?”, Alexis says softly.
Timothy nods and Alexis giggles softly some more, “Yeah, I can tell. Just remember our business proposition.”
Susan parts the lips of her labia, tilting her head back slightly, her tits rising slightly on her chest, and with her middle finger slides it deeper inside her pussy. Timothy takes a sip of his coffee and watches Susan as Alexis watches both of them.
Susan’s nipples get harder with each thrust of her middle finger deep inside her pussy. She lifts her knees up slightly and moans louder and begins to squirt all over her chair and down to the floor.
Alexis smiles, “Nice!”
Susan trembles slightly in her chair as Timothy gulps down the rest of his coffee and says he must get to mowing their lawn.
Timothy heads to the door. Alexis helps Susan out of the chair as they walk arm in arm behind Timothy.
“See you tonight”, Susan says, Timothy nods, “Yes, see you tonight”.
“Text before you leave your place”, Alexis says.
Timothy nods and walks out the door.
“He wanted you so badly, Mom.”, Alexis says with a laugh, as the two of them watch Timothy unload the equipment needed from the back of his trailer.
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